A few weeks ago I cleaned my desk and I came across something I hadn’t seen or thought about in years. Immediately I remembered the impact it had on me.
I wish I wrote the date on it...didn’t think to then, but it was obviously around a new year that I created my list of “resolutions” or, better defined, my mantras.
The rainbow stream of fonts in all different sizes illustrate my intention to make each point stand out.
I used direct lines from lyrics...Hannah Montana lyrics to be honest...I’m guessing I wrote this inspirational page around 2007. I definitely remember having this hung up in my bedroom during high school. I would walk the school halls and classrooms and repeat my favorite lines to myself--one being, “I own the room, in a good way.”
As a freshman in college I had this taped to my bedroom wall as well. This time, the meanings were set in action in a brand new world, with new people, places, and experiences.
Growing up I always had my walls plastered with posters, “collages” I made of my favorite things like shoes, vacation, spots, and the A-List stars of the time. I was vigilant about my creative life; I wrote every single day. Always after school--after I rushed through my homework.
My room was a world I created. I felt 100% confident in myself and my abilities. I was a rockstar, a model, an actress, a pirate (don’t give me that look--Pirates of the Caribbean was a huge hit at the time and I was/still am convinced I could join that franchise), a writer, popstar, etc. I always felt the best version of myself in my room. I was in complete in control, yet extremely relaxed and comfortable. I recently named that point in time for my room--”my womb of creativity.”
How did I get to such an elevated state of mind? I think it was my unwavering belief in myself that I had in that room. What prompted such belief?
When I saw this weeks ago, I lit up. My energy was recharged with an instant rush of my youthful power. It was awesome. Now, not everything is transferable or necessary for my current point in time...I don’t want to be a rockstar, I don’t need to flirt because I’m in a very happy and loving relationship, I don’t need to write a book, or "ban thoughts of other" as in dismiss other's ideas about me, “make some noise/ raise my voice”, sweat confidence (or sweat at all--that I pulled from a deodorant campaign I think), etc.
I was building up my confidence during such a fragile state of social existence. I’m satisfied in that department. I’m friendly, but I wouldn’t want to be the life of a party (unless I was hosting a small gathering), I like meeting new people...but then again I’m content with the current lasting friendships I have.
There are many bits that I do need more practice and reflection on. For instance--be spiritual. I notice when I have closer connection to God and the universe I feel so much better. Don’t be afraid to be all that I am...or that I want to be...Don’t sweat the small stuff (lots of sweating here). Sooth myself...relax--I need to work on that still. Let my heart be open...I’ve learned that I’m not always as open and I think it am.
As I read this again, I’m truly amazed that I wrote this when I was a teenager. I’m surprised by the depth and ability to notice that I needed an extra reminder for me to live a fuller and happier life.
I’m looking forward to what blessings unfold this year. Last year was quite tricky for me. In hindsight, it seems only so difficult so that I could truly enjoy my many blessings.
For 2017, I my mantras/resolutions/reflections (whatever you wish to call them) are as follows:
Trust in God, turn to God more often
Acknowledge God in my life and build upon our relationship
Make prayer a daily priority
Have fun with my family and friends
Be patient and kind to them
Think about their feelings and experiences
Listen to them deeply and anticipate their needs
Enjoy being with them
Make time for quiet moments to rest my mind
Make time to exercise and enjoy it
Eat a well balanced diet--everything in moderation
Take actions (even small steps) to achieve my goals
Read for fun
Write for blogs and/or screenplays everyday
Have fun coming up with cool ideas
Go out and enjoy nature
Journal my feelings
Pamper myself in little ways
Make time to enjoy being alone
Be mindful of my thoughts, actions, and feelings
I feel content about this--there’s nothing regimented, there’s nothing too strict that it scares me off. This is the type of lifestyle I really want to live. I think this simple outline can translate into every person's life, no matter who you are, what you’re doing/not doing, where you live, what your goals are. This really seems like a simple way to check in with myself… feel free to use this as a model for yourselves.
If you have reflections, mantras, goals, and resolutions or other comments or questions please reach out and comment below! I’d love to hear about you and your hopes for growth in 2017! Have any tips that have made an impact--that would be a wonderful way to help and share with our Pixie Chick community!
I wish you a very happy, healthy, prosperous 2017 with many joys, blessings, and love.